Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Just ugh.

I have had an INSANE amount of stress lately.  The last 2 days have been particularly rough.  I am wanting to eat EVERYTHING in sight.  Even things that aren't in sight...

Today I really wanted something "bad", so I got something to drink instead.  I figured that would help me decide if I was really hungry or just thirsty.  I held out for a while, and it hit HARD.  I didn't want to waste snacks in the pantry or points today, so I ate a small dill pickle.

There's no need to comment, I just needed to vent a little.  I have gotten out of my Pilates habit, which I need to get back into.  I can just feel this stress really trying to take over my whole being.  It sucks, and I don't want to give into it.

I need to also realize that me giving in to stress and making bad food choices probably means I won't have a loss tomorrow morning at weigh in.  If that's the case, it's not the end of the world, just an indication that I need to get focused and be in control of what I CAN control.

*sigh*

2 comments:

Mike & Chrissy said...

Big hugs. I feel ya. I'm not trying hard to lose anything right now though. Our summer schedule is crazy and I feel like I just want to eat all the time. To me, it seems like the more I think about the fact that I want to eat, but shouldn't, the more I want to. And the more I got and stare into the fridge. Like you said, it's all emotional. WAHHHH!

The FlyingFish said...

I'm so impressed by how much you're figuring out about yourself through this weight-loss process... even if you don't see a loss tomorrow, take that away with you - you know your triggers, and you've succeeded in trying OTHER things besides just food when you get that craving. What a win!!!
Becca