Here's what I don't get. I really don't like me right now. I don't know why. I hate looking at pictures of myself. I hate looking in the mirror. I took pictures today for a friend and you can see the pain in my face.
Granted, I've been under the weather this week, so my energy level is shot. Here's the thing, though... I feel like I'm digging all the time for compliments from the person that I crave them from the most. I mean, damn. I've lost 27 lbs in the last 6 mos. This stems from, not the fact that my husband is insensitive, but that I am not happy with me.
Those of you that have undergone this transformation - What do you do? How do you keep your chin up? Gah. My chin...
The irony is that I named this blog "Double Chin to Healthy Again" and my chin won't go away. I am SO sad about that. I'm so discouraged.
So today is Thanksgiving and I'm miserable. I am thankful for my friends and family, and thankful that God provides for us day in and day out.
I just have to figure out how to be thankful for me today. I'm struggling with that one.
...and to think, I thought I was smiling in this pic. These eyes don't hide anything.
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I see the concern in your eyes, but I see a mouth that wants to grin really big and say, "hello, here I am".
I think you are still "seeing" the old you, it will take you a while to see the new you.
Amber, I think you look amazing, and you've put so much hard work into getting to where you are. I agree with Mary that you aren't seeing what we're seeing. It's a totally different you! :)
Hugs! Hopefully our Turkey Day feast didn't get us too off track! ;)
You are amazing. You look amazing. Sometimes (most times) it takes the hard-headed men a long time to remark about that amazing-ness.
I want to see the happiness in those beautiful eyes again. I know it's there. Stop beating yourself up. I am proud of you, if that counts for anything.
Hi - I don't know you - but I've read your blog a few times... mostly because I like the title of your blog and would like to begin such a journey of my own soon... :) And I just wanted to let you know that - from that picture - I wouldn't have even guessed you needed to be on a weight loss journey. And I certainly wouldn't have said you had more than just the one chin. :) Honestly. I mean, I don't know you - what other reason would I have to say it, right? And your legs are killer! I hope I'm as successful as you are in the near future... :) I wish you continued good luck - and I hope that you figure out how to love you - for you.
~Kristin
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