Okay, now I'm ready to post...

I cannot do this without the accountability of WW online.  I can't.  I have intentions of tracking points, but without the online tools, I'm not doing it.  I had a FABULOUS routine where I'd sit and track after EVERY thing I ate.  Now it's been a month without it, and I guarantee I've gained.  Thank God my scale's battery died.  I'm sure I don't want to know.

I have a little negative, then I have some positive, so bear with me.  The 30 day Shred?  Haven't done it in over a week and a half.  My body has been hurting.  I'm struggling with day-to-day things like chores and laundry.  Not struggling as in my depression is bad again and I don't want to do anything, but physically I'm limited.  I don't know if I all ready mentioned this, but I went out for margaritas and all sorts of fried, cheesy goodness recently with two friends.  I got there first, and sat in my comfy chair.  When it was time to take pics, I really struggled to get up.  Kinda blew my cover a little bit, to say the least.  I had been trying SO hard to not let on that I felt that bad.  

I am frustrated because I have given in to my darling husband and his sweet tooth and snacking binges.  He likes to have a couple of beers on the weekends, which is fine, and he's responsible about it and all, but I CANNOT drink that stuff without paying the price on the scale.  I've noticed other physical changes with changes in my diet, and I just have to get back to doing it right.

So, like Mary, I am going to post some new goals, as mine from a while back are blown.  Maybe I should be more realistic:

I need to do the Shred video 5 days each week.  whether S does it with me or not.

Tuesday and Thursday I need to do the Shred and my Pilates video.

I have 12 weeks until my girls' getaway to NOLA.  I want to be at my goal of 165 by then.  

Those are the big ones.  I will also be using some Christmas money to get myself set back up on WW online.  I just have to do it.  It's going to be a big one-time investment (again), but if I think back over this past month, I can think of $17 that I could've NOT spent on snack food and put toward WW instead.  I'll be taking a stand for myself in that aspect.

Let's talk good things for a little while...

I woke up this past Tuesday morning at 5:30 to a sweet little face staring into mine.  "Good morning, beautiful Mommy!"  I'll tell you, that is CERTAINLY the way to start the day.  The boys have both been so encouraging to me lately, and with kids, you know whatever they say comes from the heart.  My sweetheart of a husband even stopped me in the kitchen with a hug a few days ago, and said, "Baby, I don't tell you enough, but you do such a great job around here and with the boys.  Thank you for all you do."  (Pick your jaw up.  Men are capable of doing this... I couldn't believe it, either!)

More good:

Many thanks to a fellow CG wife that offered to send me some hand-me-downs.  I don't know if she wants me to divulge her name, so I'll keep you guessing.  She sent me quite a few pairs of pants, all size 10 or around there, and a size 9 pair of jeans.  I will tell you now, that if I can wear those size 9's at some point in the next six months, I will dance a jig and post the video here.  I'm not kidding.  She also sent me a couple of adorable blazers.  I am so thankful for her generosity.  There's something quite hysterical in this situation.  I can leave my home, go shopping for hours trying on pants and tops, praying something will fit, and come home empty-handed every time.  HOWEVER, a friend that has never seen me in person, sends me a box of clothes, and they all fit.  Figure that out!  The pants were all the perfect length.  Totally cracks me up.

Don't give up on me, friends.